Sara Free

Fearlessly Welcome Guests

Fearlessly welcoming guests was not such a great idea for April. I didn't schedule one playdate. 

Before I start examining how my fears took over and didn't allow me to have people over, I want to look at the bigger picture in April. We were running around often and weekends were extended weekdays with the amount of crap we had scheduled. Yes, our own fault, but there were things we had committed to and wanted to show up for those things. 

When looking at it from that perspective, I really chose an awful month to try to have people over. Summertime would have been better with our schedule on the more lax side. The home space was sacred this month. It needed to be a place to unwind from the socializing. 

I will continue to explore fearlessly having guests over. Having people over is great motivation to clean up, cook food for people, and enjoy the company of friends. 

Next up: Fearlessly plan - I'm excited about this one. I want to fearlessly plan for the summertime -  the activities, the art we will do, the books we read, and oh the places we will go. I want to go into summer with some ideas and a mild amount of structure. Camp mommy needs to get organized, and fear of the messy days ahead cannot get in my way. 

Fearlessly Healthy

I wanted to fearlessly be healthy this month by attempting a Whole 30. I think it was more like a Whole 26, but darn it was so good to feel better from healthier choices. 

I went 26 days without alcohol. I might have been noncompliant on a few Saturdays and Fridays for a few dinners. I liked filling my afternoons with a Whole 30 snack. I discovered my favorite snacks are apples with coconut butter or an almond milk smoothie with bananas+cacao nibs+shredded unsweetened coconut. I enjoyed finding new dinner possibilities and collected new recipes on Pinterest. 

It was a challenge to say no to the birthday cake at many a kids birthday party. It was a challenge to walk away from the food left out in the work room. I had to be fearless about my choices. I had to discuss with myself that there would be food at a future date and possibly that very same food I might be craving. I was capable of waiting until the end of the 30 days. I did not need to fear a food shortage. That talk worked and steered me away from the food. 

I'm planning to continue to examine my food choices from a Whole 30 perspective. I like that I feel healthier. It's tough to fearlessly choose my health over a glass of wine for stress management, but it's so worth it!

Fearlessly Welcome Guests: I am terrified of this one. Terrified that we won't be accepted because of the state of our house (it's not hoarder bad, it's just in constant chaos). I will attempt to have people over to our house and make at least 1 playdate. I'll start small and wimpy like that but I plead the busy soccer schedule. Add to that the lack of time in our schedule to have a playdate. There goes the fear ---making excuses. 

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Fearlessly Disciplined

Ah discipline. It's a good thing to practice, and I was able to be disciplined until by health took precedence. I stuck to the schedule I set out for myself. I would juggle doing the practical stuff, like housework, with the fun, getting messy projects. I am satisfied with my progress in this area. 

I am also glad I've realized that sometimes I may need to take a break from being disciplined to take care of myself. If I need to heal, I need to heal. I will find a way to continue on the projects when a much needed break becomes necessary. And that break may not always correspond with the ones designated on the calendar. That's OK!

Of course, there are areas I would like more discipline, like eating and exercise. Winter brings out the lazy in me regarding these areas. Spring may revive the desire to get fit and eat clean. 

I'll continue striving for discipline in my life. I'll try to balance that out with some lounging days. I worry that I am making up for lost time. Then I take a moment and embrace where I am so that I can use the time I do have in a productive or counterproductive manner. 

Up next: Fearlessly Healthy - it's time to transfer that discipline to eating healthy. I want to commit to a Whole 30, the prospect does scare me. I fear I won't be able to stick to it, that I'll cave as soon as the stress amps up. I'm going to try and can fearlessly stick with it as best I can.

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Fearlessly Create

The goal for January was to make, to stick with a few ideas (even though there are many that want to distract me). I did good sticking with the plan I set out for myself. I wanted to make words, collages, and write. I wanted to stick with a plan for making dinner at home. My new planner most certainly helped me with goal planning each day.

It’s good to give the fear boundaries when I want to create. I tell myself it doesn’t have to be great or out of this world. It’s a process to understand what I want, and part of that process is figuring out where the fear might creep in.

Creating is fun. It’s fun to see something become. There shouldn’t be fear in that, just wonder and amazement and acceptance of what is brought into the world. Yet, the fear will be there, so I’m trying to examine why it’s there and then get out whatever I’m making and make it anyways. I try to envision the end point, the happy me in a few months that will be looking back at all that I made, even if it wasn’t perfect.   

The other goal was to share the creating, to put it on the blog, Instagram, and Twitter – my placeholders for this point in my life. Part of fearlessly creating for me, is fearlessly sharing. I am sharing so that it may exist beyond myself and maybe it may find its purpose.

I will continue to fearlessly create. There is so much more to this. First steps to understanding fear in creation - make and don’t let the critic demons in my head rule.

Up next: Fearlessly Disciplined – I seek to build upon my current creating routine, Mercury retrograde be darned. I’d also like more discipline in home routines, as we are about to be knee deep in activities and juggling many schedules. Discipline would help.

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A Fearless Life :: No. 1

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